Time is a construct. A big ball of wibbly wobbly, timey wimey stuff. Everyone has heard the history of Meal-Morial Madness by now, but part of that history is tied to the early days of the pandemic and my personal foray into live streaming.

It’s weird thinking about it now. Erica encouraged that I should try streaming in 2020. It quickly became a way to connect with friends during those oh-so unprecedented times. Part of that was playing party games and part of that also became me playing games I wanted to play… in front of people. In October of 2020, I became an Affiliate on Twitch¹. This was due to several friends following and chatting during those early days².

I will tell you for those first… three or so years, I did not have a lot of confidence in myself to be entertaining. I also worried a lot more about what I looked like to the audience than enjoying myself. I did have moments of fun. However, I remember a lot of energy and feelings determined by being “on” so to speak³.

As time went on, I found it rewarding to tinker. I enjoyed doing the tech side of things. I also liked going through histories of older games with people. Many memes were created during the stream due to running gags with my chat⁴. Much of what I did and learned then contributed to planning for Meal-Morial Madness. I’m way more proud of it than my personal streaming.

As of now, I do enjoy streaming a lot. I think I’ve found a balance of interaction. Some great friends have shown up to support me, troll me, and often it’s both. I see part of my streaming as keeping the 4Score7Pongs community alive and well. If you can call it a community?

A side effect of my streaming is my gaming habits are very intertwined with streaming both for better and worse. As an actual ADHDer, I would start some games. Then I would stop due to some frustration or the new hotness. I finish playing through many more games now in quick succession. Part of the fun is me bashing my head against a wall. But I have also stopped gaming as much when I’m not streaming. The good thing is, I’ve balanced it so it doesn’t feel like work.

One of the hardest things to do is stream when no one is there, or when people are just lurking. It’s awkward at times. It can be easy to get trapped in your own head. I can lose confidence that this is anything anyone would ever want to spend time watching. I’m not the most charismatic person and on low energy days I can simply not talk as much. I want to stream more often, but it’s all an energy trade off.

With all that said, these past five years have been a rollercoaster of emotions. I started trying something I initially had no confidence in. Today, I feel pretty confident turning up the light and hitting “Go Live.” Then I end up dying 15 times or so in a Mario game. I have fun creating bits, new content or features, and lately video packages. I have regulars who show up for most streams, and people that pop in now and then. If it weren’t for the support of my friends that show up I’m not sure I’d keep doing this. Erica has been incredibly supportive of this thing. She’ll be the first to tell you that this streaming idea was hers in the first place.

With that out of the way enjoy a bunch of clips we’ve gathered over the last five years streaming weirdness.

Thank you everyone. Say “goodnight chat”.

Supplemental Content⁵

I haven’t been the best of posting clips , or promoting myself on my socials. Mostly because I don’t want to inundate people with this stuff. But I feel like the curated approach to CONTENT CREATION has its benefits. Let me know if you have any ideas or suggestions on how to improve. Okay BYE!

Also let me know if you want some behind the scenes content on how all this streaming stuff works today. We’ll definitely be putting some stuff together about streaming in general for our audience before Meal-Morial Madness 2026.

1. Basically this meant I could start earning money. ↩︎
2. Have I said “Thank You!” enough? ↩︎
3. Also being unmedicated. YAY! ↩︎
4. Say “hi chat!” ↩︎
5. Oooh fancy? What’s in this thing? ↩︎