{"id":6405,"date":"2025-10-21T13:12:46","date_gmt":"2025-10-21T17:12:46","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/wyomingjarbo.com\/blog\/?p=6405"},"modified":"2025-10-21T13:12:46","modified_gmt":"2025-10-21T17:12:46","slug":"435","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wyomingjarbo.com\/blog\/2025\/10\/21\/435\/","title":{"rendered":"43.5"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I\u2019m an adult, but I still like to acknowledge my half-birthday<sup><a class=\"footnote\" href=\"#fn1\" id=\"ffn1\">1<\/a><\/sup>. Age is just a number. My half birthday happens to be my second favorite number. I thought I\u2019d check in <a href=\"https:\/\/wyomingjarbo.com\/blog\/2025\/04\/06\/forty-three\/\">since the post I made around my birthday this year about being diagnosed with ADHD and Autism<\/a> and how that clarity gave me the knowledge I needed to live a blissful and peaceful life. <strong><em>*cough*<\/em><\/strong> \u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">As we\u2019ve seen this year, there\u2019s been much a hubbub about autism and how some people view it as something to be cured. All I can offer is my experience. I don\u2019t view this is an ailment, but just a different neurotype. I feel the need to reiterate, if you\u2019ve met a person with autism, then you\u2019ve met one person with autism. Experiences are different for every autistic person as it\u2019s a spectrum (not less autistic to more autistic). I certainly don\u2019t speak for anyone apart from myself. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Observations<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">As an autistic person, I\u2019ve been adopting the phrase \u201cDon\u2019t hear what I didn\u2019t say\u201d to emphasize that I meant what I said literally. After reflecting on it, I\u2019ve noticed how many neurotypical conversations rely on body language and other ritualistic norms to be understood. I\u2019ve observed people repeatedly venting their frustrations to friends, colleagues, and family. To me, these conversations seem repetitive without taking steps to change the outcome. However, people don\u2019t seek advice; they vent as an outlet. I recall a friend asking me before starting a conversation, \u201cAre you looking for guidance\/advice, or do you just want to vent?\u201d This is a helpful opener for many conversations, and for me, it\u2019s usually both. Now that I\u2019ve been in therapy for a while, I\u2019ve noticed that people often use their support systems as therapy<sup><a id=\"ffn2\" href=\"#fn2\" class=\"footnote\">2<\/a><\/sup>. However, this approach may not always be effective because everyone\u2019s experiences are unique, and what works for one person may not work for another. I used to respond to conversations as a problem solver, which is a built-in natural part of my personality. But that\u2019s generally not what people are seeking. I\u2019m actively working on elevating my listening skills and expressing that my perspective is personal and may not apply to everyone. Now that I know I\u2019m autistic, I know my perspective is statistically not relatable, and that\u2019s okay.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-group has-global-padding is-layout-constrained wp-container-core-group-is-layout-18c100bf wp-block-group-is-layout-constrained\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-9-16 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Spock and Doug the Vulcan Discuss Saying &quot;I&#039;m Fine&quot; #startrek #strangenewworlds\" width=\"422\" height=\"750\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/Q_kA-FZPV-g?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">I feel like this scene from Star Trek: Strange New Worlds captures a bit of what I am getting at. <sup><a class=\"footnote\" href=\"#fn3\" id=\"ffn3\">3<\/a><\/sup><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Now that I\u2019ve mostly treated my ADHD<sup><a id=\"ffn4\" href=\"#fn4\" class=\"footnote\">4<\/a><\/sup>, my need for conversational stimulation has decreased, meaning I\u2019ve become even more of a hermit. Contrary to what people might think of me, I consider myself to have vampire autism<sup><a id=\"ffn5\" href=\"#fn5\" class=\"footnote\">5<\/a><\/sup>, meaning if you don\u2019t invite me into a conversation, ask me a question, or an event, I\u2019m not going to invite myself in<sup><a id=\"ffn6\" href=\"#fn6\" class=\"footnote\">6<\/a><\/sup>. Trying to find a proper entry point INTO a conversation is excruciating, and I make the assumption that most of the time, people don\u2019t really care what I have to say<sup><a id=\"ffn7\" href=\"#fn7\" class=\"footnote\">7<\/a><\/sup>. I don\u2019t like talking about myself, but if you ask me a direct question about myself, I won\u2019t avoid it. That\u2019s something I am working on<sup><a id=\"ffn8\" href=\"#fn8\" class=\"footnote\">8<\/a><\/sup>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Being misinterpreted is something I\u2019ve had to deal with for a very long time, and now I know that\u2019s not an uncommon experience with autistic people. I communicate with a different communication style compared to neurotypical people. I remember a situation when I was pretty young where my cousin had a break-up with her boyfriend, and I asked \u201cwhere\u2019s your boyfriend been?\u201d or something to that nature, and I got told \u201cyou can\u2019t ask that\u201d. I had no context as I didn\u2019t know. I\u2019ve asked pretty direct questions to people. I am a direct communicator, but I\u2019m still misinterpreted. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It\u2019s clear in my mind, but translating that into clear and concise speech can be challenging. I often feel that people have an exaggerated caricature of me, lacking nuance<sup><a id=\"ffn9\" href=\"#fn9\" class=\"footnote\">9<\/a><\/sup>. Perhaps everyone struggles with this? One common misconception is that I dislike people, which isn\u2019t entirely true. I\u2019m simply very selective about whom I associate with, a result of decades of having my trust broken, being misinterpreted, and navigating life in a neurotypical world as a neurodivergent person without realizing it. I like conversing with people, but not generally in a group of people in a loud space. Those times when I get to talk directly to someone are a vastly different experience to me. Another misconception is that I\u2019m very opinionated and thrust my opinions onto others, when in reality I&#8217;m not concerned about what people think about things. If you ask for my opinion and then disagree, is it my fault? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Recently, I\u2019ve noticed the subconscious draw to many neurodivergent individuals over the course of my personal history. Many people don\u2019t usually ask clarifying questions; they hear one thing, draw conclusions, and move on. I\u2019m not claiming to be immune to this myself; I\u2019ve done that too. This isn\u2019t a vague post or a response to anything specific. Don\u2019t hear what I didn\u2019t say. I just wanted to follow up on my last post on this subject. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Future<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">While my diagnosis was genuinely reassuring, it didn\u2019t necessarily provide me with a clear roadmap for my next steps in life. However, one thing I\u2019ve been quite firm about since then is that I don\u2019t want to conform to neurotypical standards. So much advice given to neurodivergent individuals is \u201chave you tried not doing that?\u201d which essentially means \u201cplease conform.\u201d I don\u2019t believe that\u2019s a unique experience to only neurodivergent individuals. I think it applies to a significant portion of American culture, particularly corporate culture. I counter with \u201cHow \u2018bout no?\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I\u2019ve been trying to figure out how I can function without everything being a life draining experience. I think I mentioned in birthday post that I\u2019ve noticed a boost in energy comparatively to my years not accommodating myself. That means giving myself grace when I\u2019m not feeling productive, and planning buffer time before and after time around social engagements<sup><a id=\"ffn10\" href=\"#fn10\" class=\"footnote\">10<\/a><\/sup>. Unfortunately, that\u2019s not how many corporate jobs work. I don\u2019t know where I fit into things still. I still have a lot of uncertainty of what I\u2019m supposed to be doing. I\u2019m trying to break out of the mindset that I\u2019m in a sunk cost fallacy. The future is of my making, and I know that, but I\u2019ve got to find a trailhead first. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image aligncenter\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1279\" height=\"808\" data-attachment-id=\"6404\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/wyomingjarbo.com\/blog\/pastfuture\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/wyomingjarbo.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/PastFuture.jpeg?fit=1279%2C808&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"1279,808\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"PastFuture\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/wyomingjarbo.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/PastFuture.jpeg?fit=1024%2C647&amp;ssl=1\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/wyomingjarbo.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/PastFuture.jpeg?resize=1279%2C808&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"Source: https:\/\/x.com\/waitbutwhy\/status\/1367871165319049221\" class=\"wp-image-6404\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/wyomingjarbo.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/PastFuture.jpeg?w=1279&amp;ssl=1 1279w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/wyomingjarbo.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/PastFuture.jpeg?resize=300%2C190&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/wyomingjarbo.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/PastFuture.jpeg?resize=1024%2C647&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/wyomingjarbo.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/PastFuture.jpeg?resize=768%2C485&amp;ssl=1 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1000px) 100vw, 1000px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Source: <a href=\"https:\/\/x.com\/waitbutwhy\/status\/1367871165319049221\">https:\/\/x.com\/waitbutwhy\/status\/1367871165319049221<\/a><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Some of this is just breaking out of my thoughts, and just doing things, which I\u2019ve been able to do this year. I am also working on to better promote myself and expressing my talents. What I do have are a very particular set of skills, skills I have acquired over a very long career. Skills that make me a nightmare for people like you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">And That\u2019s a Wrap (Sort Of)<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I\u2019m not trying to portray myself as an impeccable individual who has never made mistakes or who will only do things my way. I\u2019m quite aware of my flaws<sup><a id=\"ffn11\" href=\"#fn11\" class=\"footnote\">11<\/a><\/sup>. However, I\u2019m committed to continuously learning and adapting to become a better person. I try to avoid overthinking the past, which is different from reflecting on it. I believe reflection involves some form of growth or change over time. On the other hand, overthinking involves dwelling on the past and contemplating everything I could have done differently. I need to understand that I can simply exist, and if people don\u2019t like me, that\u2019s not necessarily my responsibility to bear. I will continue to write here, to at very least express myself in a way I feel comfortable, which is writing a long overly verbose blog post instead of just saying \u201cI\u2019m fine.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:100px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<ol class=\"wp-block-list footnotes\">\n<li id=\"fn1\"><a id=\"fn1\"><\/a>and confusing people to when my actual birthday is. Hint: it\u2019s not today.  <a href=\"#ffn1\">\u21a9<\/a><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li id=\"fn2\"><a id=\"fn2\"><\/a>I\u2019ve also had a pretty positive experience with therapy but I understand that it can be a mixed bag.  <a href=\"#ffn2\">\u21a9<\/a><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li id=\"fn3\"><a id=\"fn3\"><\/a>Also, it\u2019s hard not to interpret many Vulcans as autistic coded. <a href=\"#ffn3\">\u21a9<\/a><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li id=\"fn4\"><a id=\"fn4\"><\/a>That\u2019s a whole OTHER topic and I am working on it continuously.  <a href=\"#ffn4\">\u21a9<\/a><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li id=\"fn5\"><a id=\"fn5\"><\/a>&#8220;Vampire autism&#8221; is a lighthearted, informal term used within autistic communities to describe an autistic trait related to social communication. It refers to the need for explicit verbal invitations in social situations, drawing an analogy to the fictional myth that vampires cannot enter a house without being invited inside. <a href=\"#ffn5\">\u21a9<\/a><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li id=\"fn6\"><a id=\"fn6\"><\/a>Obviously there\u2019s a lot of nuance to this depending on the context of who I\u2019m with, where I am, topic of conversation.  <a href=\"#ffn6\">\u21a9<\/a><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li id=\"fn7\"><a id=\"fn7\"><\/a>Unless they tap into a piece of my hyperfixated  obscure knowledge ore from the mines of my mind.  <a href=\"#ffn7\">\u21a9<\/a><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li id=\"fn8\"><a id=\"fn8\"><\/a>Like right now in this high quality, locally sourced, brain to table blog post.  <a href=\"#ffn8\">\u21a9<\/a><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li id=\"fn9\"><a id=\"fn9\"><\/a>Sometimes I go along and play into the bit too. <a href=\"#ffn9\">\u21a9<\/a><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li id=\"fn10\"><a id=\"fn10\"><\/a>Now that even means stepping away during social functions just to get a moment of respite.  <a href=\"#ffn10\">\u21a9<\/a><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li id=\"fn11\"><a id=\"fn11\"><\/a>QUITE aware. <a href=\"#ffn11\">\u21a9<\/a><\/li>\n<\/ol>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Time marches on, and I check in since my last overly serious drawn out post about myself. 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